Today is one of those days where you would like to stay in a coma all day. Thoughts and feelings overwhelm me today. My oldest son turned 16 today and we are not communicating very well right now. I basically kicked him out and he is at his dads house. I do not like the way it is between us, however, this is one of those "it'll hurt me more than it hurts you" scenarios. There is nothing specific troubling me today, it is pretty much "everything in general". I would rather it be something specific because it would be easier to manage one specific thing than tons of in general things. (Disclaimer: if you are looking for a pick me up today, this post is probably not it.)
I am also tired of being apart from my husband. He has to live and work in TX for now, and I am not tolerant of that fact today. I wanna scream and shout and stomp my feet, "It's not fair!" but I do not do that, externally at least....
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Here we are...2012
Alright, I am assuming you who are reading this, know nothing about me. I pretty much started this blog as a place to write...not really knowing who, if anyone, would be reading. I have been on facebook since 2007, and on myspace before that. It's a bit difficult to write in a blog format on facebook, so, after a few years of contemplation, I write. lol.
Ok, so, where to begin. I am a mom of 6. Yes, I said 6. I had 6 children, all natural child-birth, all with the same man. This man, after 13 years, and 6 kids, decided, "he didn't want to be married anymore". Much to my dismay at the time, and after a long battle for reconciliation, I filed for divorce. This was hard for me as a Christian. I believed my marriage would last forever and "for better or worse" we would grow old together. We did not. I was devastated. I do not pretend to know what God has for us, or why things, events, etc., happen the way they do, but they do. Looking back now, I am not sad about the divorce. I did not choose it, and God knows, it is hard on my kids. I was in a give/take relationship...I gave, he took. I have since remarried a wonderful, kind, generous, considerate man who loves and cherishes me for who I am. We are in a give/give relationship. He gives, I give, we all give! It's all good! I write all this to give you a background. Where I have come from, my past story, has created a new path, a road on which I now travel. This is the journey I will attempt to record here. Thanks for coming along for the ride.
Ok, so, where to begin. I am a mom of 6. Yes, I said 6. I had 6 children, all natural child-birth, all with the same man. This man, after 13 years, and 6 kids, decided, "he didn't want to be married anymore". Much to my dismay at the time, and after a long battle for reconciliation, I filed for divorce. This was hard for me as a Christian. I believed my marriage would last forever and "for better or worse" we would grow old together. We did not. I was devastated. I do not pretend to know what God has for us, or why things, events, etc., happen the way they do, but they do. Looking back now, I am not sad about the divorce. I did not choose it, and God knows, it is hard on my kids. I was in a give/take relationship...I gave, he took. I have since remarried a wonderful, kind, generous, considerate man who loves and cherishes me for who I am. We are in a give/give relationship. He gives, I give, we all give! It's all good! I write all this to give you a background. Where I have come from, my past story, has created a new path, a road on which I now travel. This is the journey I will attempt to record here. Thanks for coming along for the ride.
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